Bryan's Abridged Testimony- "WHERE WAS GOD?"

I was blessed to be adopted at birth.  My parents were ambitious educators that encouraged me to be the best I could be- but as I was becoming a teenager, our family had begun to separate.  Confusion and doubt created a wedge between me and all the institutions that had previously provided firm ground.  I became disenfranchised with everything- family, school, sports and especially God.  At the same time, I was being bullied at school by guys who had been my best friends.  “Where are you God?” 

I felt betrayed and allowed my anger and frustration to drive me into the dark.  A lover of music from a young age, I jumped headlong into the 80’s heavy metal movement and used my anger to drive my ambition to become a rock star.   My goals were hate driven- I wanted to punish the world with my music- become famous and make all who had betrayed me wish they had never crossed me.

At 40 years old, I was addicted to pain killers and a full- blown alcoholic.  I lost my job, lost my home and destroyed two marriages. I had all but lost hope for “a good life”.  In 2012 I began a slow turn back to Jesus and every aspect of my life changed.  My transformation continues today.  Sonrise Saints is an opportunity to share my story with others- particularly youth who may find themselves at the same crucial crossroads.